my computer kind of went hay-wire again :( damn i know what's wrong with it and it managed to switch on again because i replugged the cables. hopefully, the pc would work just fine tmr when i get up. soooo, i am kind of excited for many things since my friends are dropping by my house next monday for a late christmas celebration! and also, i managed to pre-order the shinee photobook! yay, thumbs up! i'm also pretty excited for my birthday to come since i'll be turning sixteen in less than a month! deng deng deng. *inserts confetti and red carpet for myself* okay, so yeah! merry christmas and a happy new year in advance babies!

i'm so sick and tired of this. stop telling me all of these stuffs that doesn't even matter to me. what the hell is wrong with you? i'm moody enough already, stop rubbing it in my face. don't you know that i'm so exhausted. i'm so exhausted of putting on a smile that isn't genuine, isn't from my heart, isn't my intention, but a mask. i say i'm fine when i'm not. i say i'm happy when i'm not. get it? don't you ever understand?

finally my computer's fixed. thanks to my uncle who paid a visit today and dropped by for dinner. but the sad thing is, every single thing in my computer is not saved in any external hard disk, so that'd probably mean that everything in my computer is gone. every single thing. except for my music folders and videos because i've saved them in my iphone so i could easily transfer them to my computer. it so happens that i couldn't find where i left my photoshop cs5 cd rom too. argh it's getting on my nerves that every single thing i lose, would always be at home, somewhere, hiding. in other words, i misplaced it. but to put myself in a less careless, ignorant girl, i would just say the things i lose are hiding.

One word. just one word to describe how i have been feeling these days. excited! yes! why?! because i managed to convince my mum to buy me the japanese album of juliette and sm town winter album and not to forget 'the first'!!! though i only managed to placed orders for the first two. but i am really excited by the fact that ill be receiving these albums on my doorstep in the following days to come. there's also the minho photobook and calendar that i have preordered and the japanese lucifer album that has yet to be delivered. so i am really looking forward to all these arrivals ! what's more.. there's a mama rebroadcast tomorrow! and im going to do morning exercise tomorrow yet again... i still don't really get why i am so much into exercising these days... maybe it's minho or i am just gaining interest in it. oh well. exercising keeps us healthy anyway.

it's 9th december! you know what that means, it's korea's prince choi minho's birthday! yeahhhhhhhhhhh though i am actually feeling quite dejected now since i did not get my hands on the tickets to snsd's concert. i swear i really feel like crying a river right now but i'm holding in because there's always next time!!! right? right? say yes. you did, thanks. so basically, my dad's mood didn't change, except for yesterday. i wanted to update yesterday but i decided to save it for today since it's the prince's birthday. i'm being so self-delusional but who cares. ok back to the main point, i ordered on yesasia shinee's japanese juliette album! and i'm really quite excited and my heart's pumping so much blood that i feel so warm on my cheeks. it'll arrive around 23rd december or 24th. till then, i am very satisfied with myself to be able to convince my mum to let me purchase from yesasia, since she didn't really trust online sites. also, i've planned out a lose-weight plan! by climbing the stairs every mornings, and the number will constantly increase as each week past. let's hope i lose those extra fats off before the new year comes! fighting!

Heya today's update is a little late due to my heavenly computer which broke down this morning. the monitor couldn't be switch on because.. because it probably hates me or doesn't want to see me anymore. oh well, i couldn't do much about it but just leave it alone while i watch the television and just surf the net with my phone or ipad yay! my dad's mood didnt change a bit, still as grumpy and naggy. he was nagging at me because i was reading the philosopher's stone instead of my textbook. blame jk rowling for making me an avid reader dad. till then i hope my dad isn't grouchy tomorrow.

my dad's been grumpy this whole afternoon. he had been grumbling ever since he got home about every single thing i do. about me using the computer, leaving the camera box by the sofa, drinking water, being messy. i know. i am very disorganized and untidy but i can't help it. he even mentioned that i'd hopeless if i continue using the computer all day. and i retorted. shouldn't have but since i already did, i can't possibly rewind time and take those words back and stuff it back into my mouth. sometimes i do blame myself for doing nothing productive on the computer all day. buuuuut at the end of the day, i'd still use the computer. hah.

It's been awhile since I have blogged, should be around a year. I remember those times when I'd blog about almost everything about my life and blogging being the coolest thing for kids to do. But I decided that this should just be a personal online diary, apart from my kpop tumblr ;)